Post by breakawayheart on May 25, 2005 16:52:15 GMT -5
I want to curl in on myself, and make the light of day go away. Being out 'there' is so scarey that all I want to do is stay in my safe, warm shell, and never come out. I know how people and the world can be because of so much that has gone on in my short seventeen years. I uncurl just a bit to peek out, and see only a few people I truly trust. Kate, Chrystina, and Aimee. Seeing my three best friends makes me come out just a little bit more from my shell, and want to the explore the world slowly and at my own pace. I don't want others to push me like they are doing. Suddenly, everything is rushing up. I need a job now. I need to pay for a car now. I need to pass my finals. I need to become a senior. I need to find a college. I need, I need, I need. Well I don't need. What I need to do is have time to explore the world around me now that I've finally come out of my shell enough to actually experience a daily life. That's what I need.